Half of 8 is 3.

21 Oct, 2025

The more I have to make to get something done, the less I want to do it. I guess it's the same for everyone. In a way, when things become grand, I think to myself "It's going to be very good when it's done!" and that serves as motivation; it pushes me through the act of finishing whatever it is I'm making. But that type of motivation doesn't last forever and as days go by, eventually it runs out.

Recently I've found that I am very easily motivated by visuals, if whatever I am making has some visual aspect to it, I am more likely to finish it. If I get to see the thing "get shaped" then that serves as motivation. It is unfortunate that most of what I do is related to text, I should probably do something that incorporates visuals. I was thinking of making small games, nothing too complex, probably some puzzle games or something like that.

I gave up on writing my second (technically fourth) novel. I tried everything: With planning, without planning, without even thinking! It didn't work, my motivation simply doesn't keep up, my attention falls somewhere else. It's not like I get distracted by social media or something like that, I am distracted by other ideas, and once I think about them, I can't stop thinking about them.

Not sure about this microblog thing, even now as the words keep adding up, I feel bad just having to think about a title for this post. Will I use this just to complain about things? Very likely. Why isn't it part of the main website? Because having to update the site each time I want to say some stupid thing that goes through my mind is a pain in the ass. Ha, how humanizing! You get to read my struggles...

I've got something interesting to say about that. For the longest of times my internet presence was zero. That doesn't mean I didn't use the internet, I just didn't want to be noticed. My favorite creator, KIKIYAMA, the person that made the indie game Yume Nikki, is somewhat of an enigmatic figure. I thought to myself, "That's so cool! I want to make stuff, but be secretive about my identity!". That doesn't work out for the type of person I am. In my website's old homepage it said "I don't like talking about myself". But that's not true, I just don't like having to introduce myself, but I don't mind talking about me, in fact, I seem to enjoy that quite a bit taking into consideration how often I do it.

That's the reason why this microblog makes sense, even though it paints me as an annoying person (lol). I can't stop it! Stop reading if you want to keep the fantasy that I am somewhat cool¹... It can't be helped!

PS. Do you like the name? It's 3denpa because half of 8 is 3.